Living With Anxiety

Hi Guys!

I know I have already posted today, but I have been wanting to do this blogpost for a while and I thought seen as it is World Mental Health Day it was a good day to post this.

I have never been official been diagnosed with anxiety, but I'm pretty sure that I do have it.

When I was nine I started to worry about stupid things. For example saying something nasty about someone in my head. To be honest the things I worry about seem to be so small that I don't even remember what most of them are!

I personally find that my mum is the best person to go and talk to when I'm worrying. Back then I used to tell her anything I was worrying about, no matter how small. Nowadays I only really tell her the things that are really making me anxious. If I had to give anyone who has anxiety one tip it would be to talk to someone you trust. For me that person is my mum. You would not believe how much better I feel after talking things through with her. Also she does the best hugs, one of the things I miss the most as virtual hugs when at university is definitely not as good.

As I got older my worrying got slightly better or at least more manageable. I found that it would happen in blocks. So I could anything from a couple of months to about a year without worrying. Then all of a sudden I would just feel so anxious and worry loads for a few weeks. It felt like when you haven't seen a friend for a while and when you finally see them all they want to do is talk to you. Now that I am older and have more responsibility I find that my worry periods have become more frequent and, although I still worry about simple, irrational things, they tend to be harder to get off my mind.

When I was 14 I was sick in my maths lesson and that really set my anxiety off. I found that I couldn't go to school and I had a lot more of the physical symptoms of anxiety. I would wake up in the morning and even before I left for school I had stomach ache and felt sick which didn't exactly make me want to endure a day of school. Slowly that has got better and now it's only on the days when my school/uni routine is different do I feel this way.

I have always had more psychological symptoms rather than physical ones. It tend to have this sense of dread and anxiousness. At the moment it is fairly constant and the time when I don't feel anxious is rare. I think the worst thing about anxiety is when I can't work out what I am worrying about. It makes me feel quite down and my mind is constantly racing to find out what it is, which doesn't make me feel any better.

Moving to uni has really intensified my anxiety. I find that now I am worrying about the most irrational things mostly to do with fire safety. I will talk about this more when I write about my first month at university, but I will say that it is making my uni experience a lot less enjoyable as I feel constantly on edge. This makes it harder to get into uni life and homesickness doesn't help!

So there is how I find my life living with anxiety.

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